Sunday, July 7, 2013

Independence

This has been a good week, all things considered.  Very hectic...but good.  Monday and Tuesday, I was able to work out both days, with very good (but slightly scary) results:  my heart rate is still a small concern to me when I push myself, but I do know that a bit of pushing is necessary if I'm gonna build strength and stamina.  I feel fine when I do it...nothing out of the ordinary at all.  I just don't really like to see my heart rate climbing into the stratosphere now that I've turned 50.  It makes me uncomfortable.

Wednesday evening, my friend Tracy came in town to spend the weekend with us, so I knew that Wednesday through Sunday would be a bust.  That was ok, because I planned for it.  I know that this is not a derailment for me, it's a lifestyle, so tomorrow, I just get back on the treadmill after work, as usual, and I'll be back on schedule.  I'll also be weighing in in the morning, and I have to say that, although I don't expect a thing in the change department, it feels good to be getting back into a routine. 

It feels even better to not be weighed down by guilt because I didn't exercise every single day this week, or because I didn't eat perfectly.  A little goes a long way at this stage of the game, and I did make steps...not just on my short term goals, but also on my long-term independence from this God-awful addiction I have.  And that feels great.