've been having a lot of trouble
posting from my work computer, so yes...I'm way overdue. But despite
appearances to the contrary, I'm actually doing very well right now! As
of this morning, I'm down almost 13 pounds this month, and I'm fairly comfortably
on the food wagon, which was the goal I set for myself this month. I really
wanted to concentrate on getting back in the habit of food prepping each
morning, and sticking to my program. Mostly, I've done that.
Interestingly enough, this past Monday, I had a really hard battle with the
need to go completely off the wagon. I did cave...but I did it as healthily as
my inner drive would allow. And at the end of the day, I had gone over my
calorie goal by about 100 points. Not terrible...definitely not where I
wanted to be, especially after a dismally depressing POINT 2 pound loss last
week. But...lo and behold, this week, a six pound loss! Looking
back, I have to wonder if maybe my metabolism kicking into high gear this week
isn't what triggered those unholy cravings on Monday. Things that make you go 'hmmm...'
During this entire month, my
head has not been where it needed to be. Every day has been a struggle of 'but
I don't wanna!' with my inner child. The difference has been
that I have actually voiced that to a couple of people, and just the fact that
I allowed myself to speak that out loud seemed to break the spell it had over
me. Before, I wouldn't let myself get started if I had to start in that
funky mental mood, preferring to 'get my head right' first.
What a crock.
My mind may control my body, but my head doesn't
need to be 'in the right place' in order for my body to function. I can
think...and voice...whatever I want to, just as long as I don't drop the ball
in the process. Making myself wait was just an excuse like so many others
to not have to start my journey yet. I am coming to terms with that....just
another lesson I'm learning through this process. My inner child can pout
and whine, and cry, and throw as many tantrums as it wants to, but at the end
of the day, that room had still better be clean.
So...in the exercise category…I've gotten out a
couple of times, walked a half mile here and there over the past four
weeks...nothing substantial. Mileage wasn't my goal this month. Building
a good foundation was.
Mileage won't be my goal in February,
either. But getting myself moving while maintaining the progress
I've made with my eating habits will be. I've got a mileage goal in mind
(not a big one), but that's just to give me something to shoot for in order to
keep me moving. And with all the snow and cold weather, if that means
getting on my Dreadmill at home, then that is what I will have to make myself
do. (Just writing those words was enough to trigger my inner child.)
By the way....my head IS coming around, slowly
(very slowly), but surely. ;) I'd call that a win, any day.
How about you? Are you
working toward a goal? What is it, and what are you doing to obtain it?
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